I don't want to go on vacations anymore. I just don't. It's very hard for me. The most important thing for me now is to fulfill my duties the best way I can. Top priority. This or death
I just wonder if being aviodant is actually a problem. I don't know. I'm supposed to be secure attached in general, but maybe only with a few people? Yesteday a friend I havent talked to in a while called me. We had a nice conversation. She's really nice and smart. But then today she called again and I felt like something is off. My husband is avoidant by nature. His type is like that. Maybe he's even more avoidant than his type is supposed to be. I don't know. Maybe not.
I don't want to go on vacations anymore. I just don't. It's very hard for me. The most important thing for me now is to fulfill my duties the best way I can. Top priority. This or death
I just wonder if being aviodant is actually a problem. I don't know. I'm supposed to be secure attached in general, but maybe only with a few people? Yesteday a friend I havent talked to in a while called me. We had a nice conversation. She's really nice and smart. But then today she called again and I felt like something is off. My husband is avoidant by nature. His type is like that. Maybe he's even more avoidant than his type is supposed to be. I don't know. Maybe not.
Maybe I only like people who are not very outwardly emotional? Is this fucked up? Haha
I don't know. Maybe being picky like that doesn't make any sense. But, I don't really care. I just go with flow.
There's nothing stopping you from being happy. Not even other people. You're free.
It's not magic. It's always been this way. You just didn't want to like it. But you should like it. This is you. This is life. It's the best.